Idle thoughts - for I deserve glory (take 2)
Redrew this guy to fit with the format of the last couple idle thoughts.
If I could draw like anyone I would want it to be Pascal Girard.
Sigh <3 <3
So, this is something I wrote and posted a couple of days before TCAF and promptly deleted because I was feeling, well, anxious about it. As it turns out I actually had a really good time at TCAF. So many kind readers came out to support and talk to me. I had a really good chat about anxiety with Pascal Girard that was really validating for me and made me feel a whole lot less weird about it. Anyway, I’m posting it again because I think it’s important to acknowledge:
I woke up this morning from a sort of weird, bad dream about the Toronto Comic Arts Festival. It was weird because it was like we were on an island at a summer camp (which was actually sort of awesome). It was bad because it ended with me sitting alone in a canoe trying to play guitar, crying, trying to stay away from everyone even though they were being super nice to me because I just couldn’t handle it the environment.
I’ve been feeling really anxious this week.
The Toronto Comic Arts festival is coming up this weekend. I’m typically very excited about the festival in the week preceding it, and I am, but I can’t help but acknowledge the trepidation I feel heading into it because of the amount of anxiety I know that I’m going to experience both between tabling, after parties, “networking” and just the sheer mass of people I’m going to be engulfed in for two very long days. It’s the most socially exhausting thing I do all year.
I’m not very good at networking because I’m terrible at socializing. I’m sure I come off weird for some people and the idea of that has always bothered me but the truth is that I can’t help it – I’m just very socially awkward.
Social situations are uncomfortable for many of us within this comics community, especially for us introverts out there, and it’s important to acknowledge about one another so that we can be empathetic towards it and actively support each other through this.
As much as I say I’m not very good at networking, I think it’s important, too, not to see these events as “networking” opportunities. People often have this idea that networking is going out there to meet the “famous” people and make “connections” with people that can “do something for them”. Calm down. Aside from that attitude being really disingenuous and cheapening for the community it’s not like anybody is making bank at these things.
If it’s your first time out and you’re feeling like the outsider don’t worry about it. I’ve been doing comics for over five years and am only now starting no longer feeling like a I’m clinging onto the fringes of the comics community like a barnacle but actually starting to feel like I’m actually part of it. More than anything it’s because I’ve stuck around and built relationships with people over time, bit by bit, person by person and created genuine friendships that are mutually cherished. It all comes down to being a nice person and having the persistence to keep showing up – people will eventually figure out that you’re actually really great to be around even if you’re a social disaster like me – it just takes time.
I really liked this drawing I did of my pal Eddie so I decided to make it into a little print. I’ll have some at TCAF fo sho <3
Bore 9 debuting at TCAF, this weekend!
I’ve been putting together a pile of these today. They’re about 50 pages, slightly less than quarter sized. I’ve got a small pile of them to put out at TCAF and a few that I’ll assemble afterward to sell online. These things are incredibly time consuming to put together and as such might not ever be reprinted so get em while you can!
Idle thoughts - Valid
Boredom Pays Classix not really but kinda sort of back in print.
While assembling books in preparation for TCAF this coming weekend I stumbled across a small stack of this out of print collection of older Boredom Pays comics. Going to put em on my table but they’re likely to disappear fast so if you want one visit me early in the festival!
Idle Thoughts - Mushy mushy puke puke